It's sad.
Earlier today, I just had the feeling of going back to the old days wherein I can be with some friends whom I kind of not seeing this past few months. Have you had the feeling of being invisible with those people you really love?
I miss them. I miss how we shared experiences the way we did. At times, I know and I admit that I quite lack of appreciation with things esp. with those people around me. And right now, I think I am suffering. I don't know if i'm just being paranoid, since I really am with everything, or it is the real thing.
I remember my friend saying that the thing about being a college student is that, it challenges you on how you will handle your past and your future at the same time; New friends vs. Old friends, New classmates vs. Old classmates, New experiences vs. Old realizations.
I don't know. Do I really have to choose? Do we really have to? I admit that I became forgetful of those things that used to be important to me, my used to be happiness. Is this college? Is this what being away from everybody is about?
What should I do? Feelings do change and so people. So many questions were bugging me right now. It's hard. It's so hard. Plus the fact that I am a total paranoia. That fact when you really don't know what you did to them.. and then they make you feel like this. Or maybe.. or maybe. AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
God is just challenging me. He loves me that's why he's giving me this test. I know.. I can't bring back memories. But, maybe I could do something to build up the things that we had shared step by step. I know I could. I know I can. I know I should.
Sorry.
It's just sad.
