Single blessedness.
Someone asked me if I ever had a boyfriend. It's funny that you really can't actually answer that question, so I just told that person, "What a question".
I know.. I shouldn't be ranting about this things. Shouldn't feel left alone. But sometimes I just am. Maybe, I'm just curious with things like: What does it feel to hold hands with someone (I mean with your REAL boy), to say the 3 magic words everyday, to share secrets and stuff with him.. Things that most single esp. NBSB's (No Boyfriend Since Birth) like me ask themselves.
I'm such a cry baby when it comes to romance movies.. and I think that's one reason why I feel alone and not being crushed or liked by someone.. because I keep on believing that fairytales do exist. And whenever this thought strikes me.. insecurity knocks on my door... Am I too small? Do physical attributes really that attractive?
Maybe there are really just guys who like to like girls who were likeable. I will accept the fact that I too is in to guys who has good looks. But really, does that matter?
I believe that guys who can be too loyal and too attached with his girlfriend still exist! My friend's boyfriend is one of them! *Proud friend* I kind of witnessed those things.
But I know for sure that IF EVER there's a guy who'll come into my life unexpectedly RIGHT NOW, I really don't know what to do. Considering all the factors and things of being in a relationship with someone? I think i'm emotionally, and spiritually NOT ready. HAHA. Too much drama it seems, but that's just how I feel.
I knooooow. I'm still young and will be spending a whole lot more experience, will encounter a lot of boys along the way. I shouldn't rush things up. Maybe I'm just curious and jealous. No. I'm curious and jealous.
I shouldn't be making this big. I should focus on projects and paperworks first and be able to manage a good relationship with my grades.