So now I testify the saying..
"Kapag sobrang saya mo ngayon, malamang sa malamang iiyak ka mamaya."
Yes. Yes. I am really down and depress right now. I was laughing my ass out there earlier playing pranks with my friends after the 6pm mass.. and little did I know that this was going to happen. I thought I'll be sad because my parents might be mad that I stayed so late.. but it's not that. Worst case scenario.
What will you feel if that thing that you've ever dreamed of suddenly just a word away?? THAT IS SO SAD. I seriously can finish this full tupperware of spaghetti an a box of puto pao in front of me right now. I just suddenly felt nothing. No emotions. I don't know what to say. I don't want to talk to anyone. I just feel like eating a bunch of anything.
So this is what depression feels, huh? Well, wow. Congratulations, myself. You can now experience that feeling. THIS IS SO BAD. It's not final yet. I know I still have the final say.. but conscience can kill my lonely self if I still do what I want and ignore the feelings of those people around.
I literally want to scream. I wish I can eat my depress feelings right now. RIGHT. NOW. Sorry for bragging. This is not me. I need positive energy. Whatever happened to that Law of Attraction I loved the last time????!!
Hi, depression. Stop hugging me! Go away, please.
