Have you ever met someone whom you want to be close with but things just doesn't collab between the two of you?
Well, I'm kind of experiencing sort of feelings like this, lately. Not normal.
I may not say this to anyone, but yeah, I did. Although, this shouldn't be a big issue but for me, it does. If you had read quite few of my rants you probably know by now that I over think things and that the smallest issues are the biggest ones for me. Well, if not, why nice meeting you.
Sometimes, I feel like there's this big wall in front of us that whatever I do to bring it down, there's this forces that keeps retaining it. I didn't do anything, I swear. I've rewind every single detail that I could just to answer those questions my mind keeps throwing at me. But, nope, I can't find any single answer.
It's hard.
I just needed some space to write things out so I could feel lighter, and this is where I found myself at. Nudging the keyboards.. spying my mind. I wish I could spank myself so hard, y'know, so I could stop over thinking things.. AGAIN. It's not healthy anymore.
I don't have someone to talk about this. It isn't the fact that I am at home today, alone, sitting - sipping a hot cup of tea in a late afternoon. It isn't that people are so busy studying for tomorrow's exam while me, still here, staring blankly at the words I keep on typing.. thinking if I should draft this one or if I should share the burden. Maybe it's that no one I knew would understand what I feel. (EMOOOOOOOOOOO) No, really.
Well.. friends.. if you do. Please do contact me immediately.
Okay. I have issues. Go away.
On the key note,
LA
