....a question I asked myself as I remember the need to post something on this blog. It's been quite sometime. The last time, I remember aching on buying a new laptop so I can start on the pending projects that got stuck in my head. I kept asking myself at that time, "Do I really need a laptop so I can start on all of those things?" and as much as I try to be kuripot and be practical I always end up with a Yes. But I don't have a new laptop, still. I'm trying to sneak a blog post using my father's since his keyboards are still all complete and are able to type. Mine doesn't have a z or an h anymore I can't even type in my full name! But you know, I may still have no new things that I would be needing for all those things I wanted to do, I have a few new thoughts with me.
Old traditions has been cut off.
Our yearly December 31st meet up with my high school best friends has been absent last year. We weren't able to see each other and eat on each of our houses. Sig has spent the holidays at Singapore, Rachel was quite a bit busy with their business as she now takes over some of the decision making, and since we are incomplete we didn't bother on making plans anymore. I was quite busy as well since their is no one to manage the house.
I have no year ender post for this year, either. Not sure if I really forgot about writing one but maybe because it wasn't a priority last year. Oh, I have no definite plans from last year as well. My planner has been left out - I wasn't able to track down my 2016 with no concrete reason. I try to think of something why and what happened to me but I guess I got drown on reality.
Last year, no plans.
Sadly, let me admit that I have no short term plan from last year. All I remember was jotting down my long term plans - things I should have done before I turn 25. And I am asking myself just now all the Whys. Why did I even bothered to make one? Why? What happened?
Well maybe, the me is being just relaxed. Maybe I don't want to stress out on things and be time pressured. Thinking about it, I still have 3 years before I turned 25. This is how I plan on looking at it. But then again when you think about it, I only have 3 years left before I turn 25!!!! - This a different story right?
New year, what plans?
Finally finally I have a proper planner with me! This year I have no concrete plans yet but right now I am trying to go out and be sociable. I like trying out new things so this year I try to go and explore more. I am trying to shift into being something more by not leaving the lesser me. I am trying to roll out my future plans and trying to fill in all the answers to my Whys while building new questions to answer.
My 25 years old goal plan is still the same, nothing will be changed. Not sure if there will be additional but for now, I am still looking at the same goal. To be honest, seeing it in a realistic point, I am quite having a hard time getting to that point. Hah! Maybe that should be the goal for this year. Hmmmm...
Last year, you okay?
Yes yes yes and yes. Last year was a fast phased one. Not sure if because of work but so many things happened. New friends. New learnings. Yes stress, yes crying. You know I realized that only yourself can help yourself. You do the choosing. You take on leaps on all your what ifs. -oh wait, I knew this before.
But yup, I was and am okay. *insert thumbs up emoji*
New year, you got this!
January is nearly ending! Whaaaat happened to all those 3 weeks?! Days were really just passing by! And as I type this now, I instantly knew what I want to do this year: Bring back old traditions! I'll bring it all back, one at a time.
I'll bring back all the feelings. The feeling of aching yourself on buying a new laptop. All the things you do pastly before you become the now. All the aches of trying to be someone and not doing anything. The feeling of doing something productive. By being creative and writing it all down. I'll do this. I got this.
Let this serve not a year ender post but a welcome post for this year. Let this be my reminder for when I look back and re-read this again, I'll know the feeling I have while I type this now. Let this be one of those archives that I shall use if I forget, or when i'm forgetting. Let this stay here. Breaking traditions aren't bad after all, lets make new ones instead.
So here's to 2017: Hi. I gotchu. just don't flake on me.