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YES I AM VERY MUCH ALIVE THANK YOU SO MUCH

NOW THAT I HAVE FOUND THE EAGERNESS TO OPEN THIS ALMOST DEFUNCT BLOG, FOR THE LIFE OF ME, LET ME RUN MY FUTURE SELF THROUGH THE JOURNEY THAT HAS BEEN FOR THE PAST *MONTHSSSSSS*

So..... the last post was a year ender na late rin naman LOL so let me do a very sweet swift self update

WELCOME TO THE POD

I found a draft post of me trying to archive and lowkey promote the podcast that I have with my highschool best friends. Let me just paste my draft here para naman hindi sayang lol

What started as a joke to “record” and “try to upload” some topics we wanted to talk about everytime we hang out together made into an online archive of thoughts and experiences we wanted to share with the world.

Our format was simple: share your weekly highlight and then share a learning. In the current state of the podcasts here in the Philippines, it’s quite challenging to be different. How are we going to fit in a scale wherein most of the online influential people already are in? We just went back to our ‘why’. Why do we want to do the podcast? Why are we actually doing this? Answer: we just really wanna archive our experiences, get new learnings from each other, a good excuse to see each other and do our weekly life catch up— in hopes that if somebody was able to stumble upon our account, we are somewhat relatable and that they were able to get some “learnings” from us.

If you happen to stumble upon this blog first before the podcast, please try and give it a shot! We are open for feedback so anytime you can send us a mail or just comment them on our YT vid!

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WERK WERK WERK

On another major note, I finally able to get out of my comfort zone and leave my 9 year old job. It wasn't easy not gonna lie, I feel like I have been in and out of that *zone* for so long and hindi naman pala sya mahirap? I mean-- you get it haha lahat naman yata ng hindi tayo familiar ay mahirap sa umpisa but sometimes you really have to start somewhere just to see if that is a pit or a state. I wouldn't say na I am in a best place now but somehow where I am is better in some ways.

Natutunan ko na hindi pala talaga dapat nagccompare. You just have to see everything on its own glory or else you won't be contented with what you currently hold.

I can't say im contented na. I mean if the goal is to retire early and and be rich parang malayo pa ako sa katotohanan BUT if I use my perspectives, I would say I am at a state where I have more time to explore whether its for personal or for something else.

Nonetheless, I am happy that I get to keep my work friends with me even if I am now an *ex* lol

PASSION PROJECT

Speaking of "more time", happy to share that I am back in theatre! I was able to make an acting comeback December last year for Telon X at actually nakalimutan ko na paano nga ba sya gawin but I am just happy na the fire that I have for theatre is very much alive plus I get to do this with friends.

This year most of my time I really spent with theatre since I GET TO DIRECT A PLAY. 

Masyado na syang mahaba na kwento how I get to have the assignment maybe for a separate post lol butttt I was really challenged! Una, hindi ako marunong. Pangalawa, paano ba to. AND I am just so happy that I get to have so many help from our artistic director to our managing director. Akala ko nung una magpplot lang ako ng blockings, aba talaga nga namang ibang ibang experience kasi syempre sanay lang naman ako na aktor na kailangan sumaulo ng linya, ayusing ang costume and props ko, at ibigay ng tama yung character BUT as a director, LAHAT SILA KARGO MO.

I am happy that at least kung hindi man sya mauulit I get to say that I did it! For 6 months, kasama ko ang mga batang eto and I would sya that this project is really the star of my year.

Side note: It is really amazing how the world works-- when I transferred work, I get to be offered the directing assignment and since I have a lot of time off of work, nagawa ko sya talaga on the side of things. Minsan parang mas feeling ko mas trabaho ko yung passion over my day job and I am grateful! And then after ng final show namin talagang dun ko naramdaman yung buhos ng work stress na ay may trabaho nga pala ako LOL its just funny and I am super amazed how timing really gets in the picture.

ANG DAMI KO PA PWEDE I-SHARE AMAZING HOW THIS IS WORKING FOR ME! I stopped writing and archiving this year, kung babalikan ko yung journal ko tumigil ako mag sulat at mag write reflect since March and me drafting this is a very much big step for me. I used to write all my feelings even the smallest detail kahit anxiety ko I pick up a pen and jot it down, kahit delayed but I try and see to it before na I have a written archive. I really dont know what happened and this is me trying to put myself back into doing this all over again. Hindi naman sya mahirap, kailangan ko lang labanan yung force na humihila sakin para isulat ko lahat. Minsan iniisip ko, may tinatakasan ba ako? Am I delaying the agony, shoving them off all at the back of my head? Kailangan natin bawasan. I don't want to rot in this writing slump! (I am in reading slump also pala so ano na????)

So this is my accountability post I guess! I have so much to put here from my solo travel in Seoul until the last family trip. Wala naman magbabasa nito and I am not pressured to find readers, everything I write here is for my future self SO I WON'T FORGET. Ang sarap din naman mag enjoy life and have something to look back that not just photos, but the stories behind them. Let me just circle back to this a bit. <3

Consider this my year ender