To be honest, I don't know what to write or how to explain my 2012. I can tell you in a sentence how my last week went by but not my year. A lot has happened. A lot has changed. A lot is A LOT.
This may not be my best year (well, so far) but this had been the year that is really different. From the most happiest feeling down to the most depressing moments. 2012 can attest that. Plus, I did a lot of overthinking this year and you know, a lot is A LOT.
On June, I had my first airplane ride (plus, out of town trip) followed by September wherein I get to go abroad with classmates (okay, it's for school but it's still fun!). I had attended a lot of birthdays, seminars, and events! Also, this is the year I had been a part of an organization with lovely people. I also had been attached with old people more, reviewing mem'ries and building new ones.
2012 has been enormous, yet has its own downhill. As I wrote down on the first paragraphs of this post and as seen on the past blog posts on this blog, I had been over thinking a lot lately. I experienced the most depressing feeling I had ever felt - it has been new to me, I had never been that sad before.
You see, there are things that will really change your life and there are people that will either help you or left you hanging. The kind of sadness that no chocolate can help you forget it for awhile, no person can make you feel better with words or by even just listening. If you know me (personally) and you are reading this phrase, you may say that I am joking or just faking and telling lies about this but you didn't know the whole story. I may look okay and show people the normal me but inside I am not really fine. Maybe it's just I don't want people to ask and ask things because for sure they will talk about it behind my back (it'll make me more sad) or maybe it's just I don't really want to share the burden. You know what I mean.
On the brighter note, I had made a new awesome set of friends. This set are really different. I don't know but I really am comfortable with this one - sharing a different side of me plus, I can say things that I don't usually share. This is also the year that I turned a girl (18!!) and felt like really one - my first club experience, first sleepover, first to try a jump on a trampoline, first road trip, and so many other firsts!
As this year would end, I hope also to leave the feeling behind. Even the good ones. I think it's time to re empty my jar again so I could fill it out with new experience and feelings. I know, I don't easily forget. But, I'll try. I will really try.
I wish everybody happiness because that were it will all comes down! Cheers!