I posted this on my tumblr account. And right now I just felt the need to quote this post of mine here:
"And so I was viewing some blogs to get inspiration from. Just to share, I am currently in the middle of fixing (or more likely trying out) a literary blog which has been a long time goal of mine to do but only had gotten a time to do recently. But that’s another story.
Anyway, as I was reading and looking out on those blogs, I suddenly realized that I am really not for that type of writing; the kind of whom to share every whereabouts and every destinations. Well yeah sure I “tried” doing that way back but it only occured to me just now why it hasn’t been working everytime i’m trying it out - it’s just not me. Sure, I would love to share everything on a blog and tell the whole world all my experiences but it always comes back to my rants and life realizations and everything in between. I know im so lazy on updating and bringing my slr with me and taking photos of everywhere I go that is blog worthy, uploading heavy high res files to make the blogpost appealing, and telling a story on each and every photo. That’s the goal sure, but that’s just not me.
“Eh sino ba ako?”, myself asked myself. To answer the question, I havent yet to figure out that yet but I know that what I had realized today answered a lifelong goal of mine that is needed to be re-furbished.
But I am not staying away from blogging since it had been my shelter during emo nights and happy times. I think I can do vain life updates once in a while or post my rants here in there or maybe share random life realizations once but not the blogger I thought I ought myself to be. I had gotten hold the Literary Editor position on our school paper during highschool and I think this is, until now, my writing forte. I might as well stick to that so shall the rest to follow.
Being the organized and sort of OC that I am, all my wordplays and other literary/fiction works be posted on a separate blog. As if someone cares. (But please please please please do check it out here: http://lawrites.tumblr.com/) I accept comments, suggestions, and even criticisms!
Also, deleting old posts to give way to my new (I hope this will be the last) refurbished tumblr account. Reviving this one to see if I belong here.
Cheers to new beginnings and life long goals! 🎉"
Last week, I felt that it's about time I choose what blog I should focus on updating. I am not a popular blogger or someone so influencial but I am managing so many accounts already I feel like I have to focus on just one or maybe a few of them. I thought I already am done with the decision making. I thought I am through with endless layout changing and template decisions. But no. Being the indecisive that I am, I am not through with everything.
But even though I can't decide on options, atleast I am happy I have one final decision: I am not the lifestyle blogger type I ought to be. And realizing that made me thought that you don't need a lifestyle blog in your life, why are you blogging anyway? I mean, it made me question the existence of my blogging. I am blogging for myself, trying to type in all the words and sharing to the internet world all the things I feel like I need to post in, for me. For my archives. For my future self. And along with this, I know I won't get any far but not being me. And the blog I am dreaming of having the whole time isn't me. I can be that, but not that that. Get it? Labo diba. Haha
Anyway, as I had jot it down on my tumblr drama post (haha), I will be doing life updates once in a while whether in here or in my other accounts. This blog had shed all my rants during the last years of my existence, I should probably continue doing that - like an online diary or something. Even though I know 70% of me states I prefer a more private life (wow sikat ka? Haha).
Since I currently have the time in my hands, I'll try to be less lazier. Wru, productivity?
Also, i've been experimenting on making a better header for this blog. I am not good with graphic designing but I know I have an eye for making nice, clean designs. Hence, the photo above. I'm in the middle of editing such and trying things out. Thank god for friendly user designing apps!